Day 65

My life really does feel entirely different than it did 9 weeks ago. I am still thinking about surgery all the time, but it's more 'I LOVE the way my bite looks' kind of thoughts, rather than being consumed daily about how things were going to turn out after surgery.

I really am at the point where I can say I AM SO HAPPY I DID THIS. I am still not 100% comfortable with the way I look, but I am getting closer and closer to that point every day. I am no longer as surprised when I look at myself in the mirror. I recognize my face to a much greater degree than I did before. It's not to the point where I don't give myself a second glance, but I do not spend ages staring in the mirror trying to find myself like I did before.

I feel so free to have put so much of this past me. I feel like the issues with my jaw were holding me back from so much. I didn't realize to what degree until after the surgery. I really do feel much more confident and I am not CONSTANTLY worrying about what people think of the way I look. I seriously was always so conscious of my profile and my teeth (especially before braces, they were a MESS!) and now that I know how great my profile looks and how perfect my bite feels, I don't worry at all.

I recently broke up with my boyfriend, and it's just another change to go through this summer. I mourn the loss of the relationship, but I am feeling like I have such freedom, in every aspect of my life, and I cannot wait to see where I end up. I know it sounds silly, but I really feel like now I can do anything I want to do. For weeks I didn't want to see any of my friends, and I have gotten to the point where I can't WAIT to get back to campus and be surrounded by all of them. I have one semester left of my undergrad and I am sure this is going to be the best semester yet.

It's been quite the rollercoaster, but every up and every down has really made me a stronger person, and I am so thankful to be at the point I am at right now.

8 comments:

  • BraceFaced | July 28, 2011 at 12:05 PM

    So happy for you, Dani! You look fabulous!

  • jaw Breaker | July 28, 2011 at 12:31 PM

    "Insanity...doing the same things over and over and expecting the same results. ~Albert Einstein~" I just did a post in my other blog about this very concept. Sometimes in life, we have to clean the slate, jump off the hampster wheel, and get in touch with our soul. Going through such a dramatic surgery and recovery is a sure way to force one to dig deep! You look stunning and Im so glad that you have found the balance of confidence both inside and out!

    Carpe Diem...live consciously, seize the day!!

  • Lou | July 28, 2011 at 7:34 PM

    so glad you are so happy about the surgery! you do look amazing!

  • annafaith | July 29, 2011 at 2:56 AM

    A really honest and positive post, I've really enjoyed reading about your experiences post surgery. It certainly helps to hear other peoples stories on issues I'm going to be facing now I'm the other side of surgery. Take care xx

  • Mai | July 29, 2011 at 11:05 AM

    hey dani, its been a while since ive checked up on you and let me just say this wow, you really look amazing. I love your hair by the way ..lol
    im so glad to hear your happy with everything, with everyone having problems its good to hear that someones surgery went according to plan and everything turned out for the best.
    your amazing and like they say everything always works out for the best

  • Nora Simone | July 29, 2011 at 3:04 PM

    This post just made me so happy for you! I remember reading your first week entries, and now here you are talking about all of the wonderful things that this surgery has done for you. It's really very inspiring. Way to go, Dani!

  • Rhianna | July 29, 2011 at 5:06 PM

    Hey Dani. I can relate to basically everything you are saying. I feel I am at a good stage now too, where life is getting back to normality and I generally feel positive about myself and the future.

    So happy things are coming along well for you... Best of luck with your final semester :)
    xx

  • Brent | July 30, 2011 at 7:31 AM

    Hi Dani!
    What an awesome post! I can't wait to be where you are post surgery!!
    Have a great weekend!
    Cheers,
    Brent

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