Day 65

My life really does feel entirely different than it did 9 weeks ago. I am still thinking about surgery all the time, but it's more 'I LOVE the way my bite looks' kind of thoughts, rather than being consumed daily about how things were going to turn out after surgery.

I really am at the point where I can say I AM SO HAPPY I DID THIS. I am still not 100% comfortable with the way I look, but I am getting closer and closer to that point every day. I am no longer as surprised when I look at myself in the mirror. I recognize my face to a much greater degree than I did before. It's not to the point where I don't give myself a second glance, but I do not spend ages staring in the mirror trying to find myself like I did before.

I feel so free to have put so much of this past me. I feel like the issues with my jaw were holding me back from so much. I didn't realize to what degree until after the surgery. I really do feel much more confident and I am not CONSTANTLY worrying about what people think of the way I look. I seriously was always so conscious of my profile and my teeth (especially before braces, they were a MESS!) and now that I know how great my profile looks and how perfect my bite feels, I don't worry at all.

I recently broke up with my boyfriend, and it's just another change to go through this summer. I mourn the loss of the relationship, but I am feeling like I have such freedom, in every aspect of my life, and I cannot wait to see where I end up. I know it sounds silly, but I really feel like now I can do anything I want to do. For weeks I didn't want to see any of my friends, and I have gotten to the point where I can't WAIT to get back to campus and be surrounded by all of them. I have one semester left of my undergrad and I am sure this is going to be the best semester yet.

It's been quite the rollercoaster, but every up and every down has really made me a stronger person, and I am so thankful to be at the point I am at right now.