Tomorrow is the BIG day!

I know everyone says this, but I honestly cannot believe tomorrow is the day. The day I have been thinking about and preparing for for the last 5 years of my life. It's crazy, but I really don't think I could deal with even one more day of waiting!

It's hard to even explain the way I am feeling. I have dealt with anxiety most of my life, and this surgery is far from an exception to that. Honestly, I really am SO excited, but the excitement has been taken over by my nerves. I really am freaking out. I am not a calm person when it comes to dealing with stress, I can BARELY handle taking midterm exams without my heart racing like it's going to pound out of my chest. I am a serious Type A, and hate the feeling of being out of control. With my surgery being moved to 12:30pm, instead of 10:30am, I am going to have a bit more time in the morning to sit around and be antsy. I think I may take my dog on a walk in the morning, just to keep myself from sitting around and thinking. I have to be to the hospital by 10:30, which allows me 2 more hours of sitting and waiting until I am actually going into surgery.

Last night I went to see Bridesmaids with my boyfriend. I heard it was hilarious, and it did NOT disappoint! I recommend everyone to go out and see it, such a great night full of laughter, something I am going to struggle to do the next couple of weeks. It was one of those laugh so hard you cry movies. The Hangover Part 2 comes out on the 26th, and I am so disappointed I won't be able to see it in theaters because I know it will hurt too much to laugh, and it's not as fun when you have to restrict your laughing!

This morning my mom is preparing a big brunch for everyone. My sister, her fiancé and my little bug are coming over, along with my aunt and uncle, another uncle, my boyfriend and one of my best friends. It will definitely be helpful to be surrounded by everyone and keep myself distracted. My boyfriend is staying the night at my parents tonight, because I really did not want to be up in the middle of the night freaking out by myself, and I know he will put up with whatever I throw his way! I am running a few errands today and picking up my last minute supplies. I need a new pillow and a 'bed rest' pillow as well. I am allowed to eat tonight until midnight, and you better bet I will be eating up until the clock strikes 12! Spending the rest of the evening attempting to relax, but we'll see how that goes.

The surgical hooks have grown to drive me slightly crazy. The top ones don't bug me a bit, but the bottom ones make indents in my lip, and they have also created a small ulcer. It's frustrating when all I have wanted to do was enjoy eating, but it's been pretty painful with this sore in my mouth.

I am going to try to post as soon as I feel up to it after I get out of surgery. Please end all of your good vibes my way for a successful and problem-free surgery tomorrow, and as easy of a 'wake up' from surgery as possible :) Talk to you all soon!