Tomorrow is the BIG day!

I know everyone says this, but I honestly cannot believe tomorrow is the day. The day I have been thinking about and preparing for for the last 5 years of my life. It's crazy, but I really don't think I could deal with even one more day of waiting!

It's hard to even explain the way I am feeling. I have dealt with anxiety most of my life, and this surgery is far from an exception to that. Honestly, I really am SO excited, but the excitement has been taken over by my nerves. I really am freaking out. I am not a calm person when it comes to dealing with stress, I can BARELY handle taking midterm exams without my heart racing like it's going to pound out of my chest. I am a serious Type A, and hate the feeling of being out of control. With my surgery being moved to 12:30pm, instead of 10:30am, I am going to have a bit more time in the morning to sit around and be antsy. I think I may take my dog on a walk in the morning, just to keep myself from sitting around and thinking. I have to be to the hospital by 10:30, which allows me 2 more hours of sitting and waiting until I am actually going into surgery.

Last night I went to see Bridesmaids with my boyfriend. I heard it was hilarious, and it did NOT disappoint! I recommend everyone to go out and see it, such a great night full of laughter, something I am going to struggle to do the next couple of weeks. It was one of those laugh so hard you cry movies. The Hangover Part 2 comes out on the 26th, and I am so disappointed I won't be able to see it in theaters because I know it will hurt too much to laugh, and it's not as fun when you have to restrict your laughing!

This morning my mom is preparing a big brunch for everyone. My sister, her fiancé and my little bug are coming over, along with my aunt and uncle, another uncle, my boyfriend and one of my best friends. It will definitely be helpful to be surrounded by everyone and keep myself distracted. My boyfriend is staying the night at my parents tonight, because I really did not want to be up in the middle of the night freaking out by myself, and I know he will put up with whatever I throw his way! I am running a few errands today and picking up my last minute supplies. I need a new pillow and a 'bed rest' pillow as well. I am allowed to eat tonight until midnight, and you better bet I will be eating up until the clock strikes 12! Spending the rest of the evening attempting to relax, but we'll see how that goes.

The surgical hooks have grown to drive me slightly crazy. The top ones don't bug me a bit, but the bottom ones make indents in my lip, and they have also created a small ulcer. It's frustrating when all I have wanted to do was enjoy eating, but it's been pretty painful with this sore in my mouth.

I am going to try to post as soon as I feel up to it after I get out of surgery. Please end all of your good vibes my way for a successful and problem-free surgery tomorrow, and as easy of a 'wake up' from surgery as possible :) Talk to you all soon!

18 comments:

  • z3 | May 22, 2011 at 7:32 AM

    dont worry i was exactly like u the day before suregery.just keep in mind that everything will go smoothly. ill be thinking of u

  • S N | May 22, 2011 at 7:55 AM

    Good luck!! Sending prayers your way!

  • Sarah | May 22, 2011 at 8:16 AM

    Good luck Dani! Try not to worry too much, remember your surgeon is an expert and has done this countless times before, you're in good hands! Really hope it all goes well (I'm sure it will!) and will be thinking of you tomorrow. Look forward to hearing from you on the other side and following your recovery! xxx

  • Rosa posa | May 22, 2011 at 8:17 AM

    oh my gosh!! good luck good luckk:) I will be thinking of you tomorrow! Don't worry about feeling nervous- EVERYONE would be!! maybe it's like when you get an injection and the worst bit is allways before they've done it, because you overthink it and are all apprehensive?:) It'll be absoutely fine I know it, sending lots of love xoxox

  • thethriftylady | May 22, 2011 at 8:41 AM

    Good luck tomorrow Miss Dani! You will be so happy to be on the other side!!

    :) Mandy

  • Catherine | May 22, 2011 at 8:42 AM

    I am constantly signing onto Blogger, counting down the days to everyone's surgery. It's such an exciting moment. My thoughts are with you. You will be in safe hands x

  • BraceFaced | May 22, 2011 at 8:57 AM

    Yeah, Dani! I am so excited for you! Just think about how far I am along now so you know it won't be long before you are well on your way to recovery as well! Glad you have enjoyed your last few days. Just keep yourself busy today and try to enjoy the day. Can't wait to hear from you post-surgery! I will be thinking about you all day and sending super good vibes your way, girlie! :-)

  • Mai | May 22, 2011 at 10:50 AM

    Dani!!!
    im so excited for you!!! its finally here =D the big day (well surigically speaking)
    its alright to be anxious, and excited and freaking out all at the same time =)
    after tomorrow, youll definitly be on the road to a new and improved life style..i mean hey its been a long road but your almost at the finish line =D

    im praying that everything goes well tomorrow, that you have a smooth recovery as well
    best wishes

  • Ellie | May 22, 2011 at 10:58 AM

    Dani, sending prayers your way!! I think it's perfectly normal to be anxious. You've been waiting a long time for this, and now it's here!

  • Nikki | May 22, 2011 at 2:36 PM

    Just wanted to say "Hi!" and wish you good luck for your surgery tomorrow! I have recently been following your blog, and I am excited for you that your day has arrived! Hope your morning flies by and your surgery and recovery goes smoothly!

    Nikki :)

  • Rhianna | May 22, 2011 at 5:08 PM

    Dani!!!! so excited for you :) wishing you all the best.
    it's been a looonng time coming but now the day is here..
    You are going to do great.. And look great :)
    I will be joining you with swelling and all the fun of post surgery very soon!
    Xoxox

  • JEN | May 22, 2011 at 5:49 PM

    Good luck lady! Rooting for yoU!!

  • Brent | May 22, 2011 at 6:51 PM

    Hi Dani!
    You are in my thoughts and prayers for an excellent surgery and speedy recovery! You are almost to the finish line!!
    Cheers,
    Brent

  • BraceFaced | May 23, 2011 at 2:34 PM

    Thinking about you today! :)

  • Terra | May 23, 2011 at 5:23 PM

    You're probably already out of your surgery as i write this but I wish you the best recovery and I look forward to reading your updates :) Remember to always stay positive :) You'll be out of braces and enjoying your new jaw before you know it!

  • Cece | May 23, 2011 at 6:18 PM

    Dani,

    Hoping all is well with your surgery and recovery! Hugs!

  • z3 | May 23, 2011 at 6:28 PM

    thinking about u

  • Braced Blogger | May 24, 2011 at 5:38 PM

    Ok, Dani I saw your post on my blog so I am hoping you're doing alright! I cannot wait to hear how the surgery went!! I'll be checking in frantically all night until I see a post :-)

    xo,
    Tara

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